This Thesis is just a perspective about the history of the feminism, which is peculiarly constructed by kierkegaard's philosophy. kierkegaard's thoughts as feminist works like shadow which is invisible, even fictitious in the feminist history, however, as the shadow makes the object more real and more vivid, "becoming kierkegaard of feminism" can reveal what the paradox is, which the recent feminists goes down to, and hint on the way how to go beyond it. In the first stage' shadow is about kierkegaard's pseudonym. In there it imake clear the reason why some feminists should depend upon the male discours to express their own desires, the limitation of the language in general. In the second stage, becoming subject in feminism get to the paradox where the subjest denies herself. Some feminists posotively quote and propriate the subject theory based on the corporeal body, and go far to declare the subject is sexual. But their terminal consequences is same as Kierkegaard's paradoxical and ironical subject. In the third stage, facing with the dilemma of feminist regarding the biological essentialism, some feminists go to the calling the God. There are two divinities, the one is patriarchal and a noun form drived from the drive to the death, the other is verbal, full of the drive to the life, so called Godess. The other is made clear and confirmed in the shadow of post-kierkegaard's theology.